sigh

eh i promised to post the pictures on my birthday kan? alah but i don't feel like posting it la currently. life has been very hectic, too many things happen almost at once.

so ya, too many things to share yet too little time. well, am not that busy la, but, i am so not in the mood of telling you guys about it.

i guess i better just summarize it here,

1. just finished my final exams for the very first semester

2. currently on my 1 month short semester break

3. just got back from a week camp at UPM and Port Dickson

4. went straight to Perak after the camp

5. relationships with my babes are normal

6. relationship with crush, is, getting....funnier. =_=

7. parents bought me a new cellphone

that's all for now i guess. uhh ya, i made a huge pictures on my birthday dinner collage so you guys can just click on it to enlarge and see it clearer k. :)

*HAHAHAH i just realised, the picture won't be any larger even if you click on it. hahaha

wondering while you wander

i dreamt about it.

weird, cause it felt so damn real.

soon as i woke up,

i wondered

if it really happens

will i feel as bad as i felt in the dream

i thought i moved on

i am pretty sure about it

but the dream felt so real that it hurt so much

now i doubt the fact that

i already moved on.

untuk crush yang handsome,

hello my dearest almost perfect guy of my dream,

like somehow i have a thought saying that you actually knew that i am actually very into you. but i am not quite sure about it. i am just making a random wild guess based on your behaviour.

well if my prediction is correct, will you give me any bright signal or anything so that i won't be puzzling about it all the time. because really, i like you very very much.

thank you, handsome.

*the picture has nothing to do with the entry. just a picture of me & my lil' bro

silly memory

i remember when i was in a relationship with aret back then, he used to made me to make promises over almost everything. but that was back then, when he was not in a bad boy mode. haha K.

benci k crush2 mcm skola rendah

remember the post about how i lost my excitement seeing my crush?

well, the excitement actually crawls back to me -__-

whyyyyyyy do i like this guy soooo much.

ergh

i hate exams

especially those subject with tons of stuffs to be remembered. mannnn i. just. can't. handle. it.

memorizing those facts really made me as sleepy as a koala bear. seriously . . .

29/12/2011

will upload the pictures on my birthday dinner with family soon!

here's one,

mia familia <3

and, thank you so much aret for spending too much money for me on my birthday mwahahahahahahahahha >:D

bosan

i lost the excitement of seeing my crush on facebook, or tweet something or even watch him in front of me. so, yah -___- boooring

why he acted like we didn't know each other at all whenever we met in certain occasion that involved both of us. he must feels damn annoyed towards me kan that's why he ignored me -.-

mean role

why on earth that she treats that guy like that? it's pure mean. really.

i know he used to dump her or what ever the situation was, but then again, he already said sorry and tells her how much he loves her and say nice words to her and really mean it.

doesn't that enough? why is that girl playing all bitchy mode towards him?

i repeat, it's mean. and she should be thankful that the guy can still bears her "bitchiness" attitude she's rolling on currently.

stop.being.so.mean.will.you?

shit

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I'M DEAD-ER THAN DEAD! FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

you knowwww

i have this major fear of rejection :/

yeah.

say hello to my dear friend,

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yes, he's the one that i adore, very much.

i got struck real bad

he resembles the definition of super something

:)

once in a blue moon i'll have this stupid feeling of missing the first relationship i had. that's just, sucks. fucker.

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all these shits are so freaking intense.

now i'm starting to have a second thought about staying in the college for the second year.

not staying college means do not have to join all these activities.

not joining the activities means more time for mia familia and mia amigos.

not joining the activities means less extra unnecessary shitload works.

stop forcing us please.

funny as what

ahahahhahahahahah okay this is so funny i have to post it right now!

lucky i'm such a stalker because my last post was talking about how much i wanted to go to the trip right?

okay so i stalked that organizer's facebook page and i coincidently found a related conversation there.

it's funny how his friend really really asked him to bring as minimum number of girls because i believe that on their last trip, the girls aren't tough enough and was just brought more problems to them. ahhahahahaha

he repeated several times that he doesn't want many girls to follow the trip and he insists on having an interview to make sure that the girls are fit enough.

that just simply ring the bells, i should not ever dream of joining this trip hahaha

Gunung Besar Hantu? wuuu hantu

okay. since i didn't attach this blog link to any other social networking websites, those who are reading this are probably my close friends or the followers that already had this blog listed on their dashboard.

sooooo, since the number of readers are getting smaller, i won't be as secretive as i was on the previous posts. well, depends on what subject la kan. haha. recently, my college at upm will be holding a mountain climbing expedition at Gunung Besar Hantu, which located somewhere in Negeri Sembilan (i originally wrote Pahang -.-)

i wanted to go, it sounds really interesting, plus the fact that i haven't climb a mountain before, (might be a disadvantage also perhaps) makes me wonder what does it feels when you reached the top. but then again, remembering that i was such a pain in the ass to my friends when we were climbing the Broga hill, i'm feeling pretty unsure about going to this trip.

imagine everybody else have to wait for me for being so slow and having millions of pit stop. they'll gonna hate me for that surely. haha. but i googled the place, and the view there is just, indescribable. there's also a waterfall there. i wanna go i wanna go i wanna goooooooo :O

tolong terasa sikit

there are two distinct inner part in me that have different opinions about this one particular matter. well if i want to graphically translate it, it'll be more or less like this :

hahaha i get so bored and started to play with paint :P okay, the thing is, imagine that the red side are the side that wants me to do something that might give me more negative results while the blue side is the part of me that holds me back from doing anything that might hurt myself.

me : should i tell him about it or not?

blue : no, u should never do that because you're a girl and it is inappropriate for a girl to make the first move

red : of course you MUST tell him so that u won't be puzzled any more

me : well ya if he's giving me a positive feedback, i'll be the happiest person on earth. but if he doesn't?

blue : then you'll only gonna hurt yourself more, aren't you bored of getting hurt too many

times?

red : you'll never knowwww whether he has the same interest on you or not until you tell him!

it's okay if he doesn't like you at least you must let him know about it first!

me : but if he rejects me, how can i run away from bumping into him everyday?

blue : then you'll going to face many problems ahead because you live within the same area

red : just act like nothing happened, be professional, then everything will be fine

me : but i just found out that he has his own crush and she's definitely very pretty :(

blue : then why in the world would you want to tell him that u like him at the first place? duhh!

red : it's only a crush, not his wife right? and remember that there are people who does not put

appearance as the main criteria of choosing their lover

i am getting tired of all of this. i'm not lying about all of the above, i always had my own monologue session when ever i feel like telling him that i like him :S

ya allah,

i can't stand the fact that i have friends, that smoke weed, that i know that it is wrong, and i can't do a thing about it. how can i be this useless :(